My son is home.........

Hello everyone , My son got home late Thursday night !!!!!!! took three planes and most of the day but he made it safe and sound :) So blessed to have all my kiddo's here again .... I spent all day yesterday cooking a special Thanksgiving supper.The grandparents and one of his friends were invited over .

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We made a special trip to go see grams yesterday.That is my son and grams in the picture above . I wanted her to see for herself he was back :) I went to see her on Thanksgiving day and found things not so good and when we went yesterday I hoped maybe it was just a bad day but nope ... the swelling in her face ,hands and feet is worse again only time will tell but I know.
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Hubby did not have to have the bone marrow biopsy last week blood counts came back ok this time so they want to wait . He is having a biopsy done on the nodule on his lung on Tuesday .The Steroid treatment ends tomorrow and the next week will tell us more if he gets worse again..... time will tell and the results of the biopsy on Tuesday will awnser some questions as well on pins and needles waiting for more awnsers.

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I started to put the Christmas decorations up outside today and going to work on the tree inside tomorrow I think .Lil miss Haley is wanting to put it up so mom needs to get busy and do that :)

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The last couple days have been very long and I have tons to do.But wanted to stop in and tell you all my kiddo is home .I am sooo beyond happy about that :) Have a wonderful evening !!

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Happy Birthday Dad!!!!!!

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Hello everyone, It has been a bit since I got some images up for you so here ya go :) you know what to do .
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Sorry I have not been around much been trying to wrap my head around my crazy lil world right now .Doing ok just off in my own world right now . Missy got me addicted to farmville on facebook lol yes Missy I am blaming you LOL just kidding :)I have been getting lost in that so have not been playing much with images but will get back to it soon I promise . Picture me playing on the computer in my spare time stuffing lil snowman heads :) that is what I have been doing the past few days . All these lil round heads on my desk awaiting noses to be sewn on and painted up .

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And yes those Annies are still awaiting there outfits as well .They keep looking at me telling me to get my bum busy they are cold lol . very soon my little annies :)
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Talked to my Kiddo tonight yes I am smiling right now . He passed his classes last one was today woohoo!!!! Now just to go see the doctor have things looked at again and get all the other stuff done so he can come home soon !!! My Christmas wish... my kiddo home for Christmas and his mom can't wait to see him. give him a big hug and see those shiny wings adorning his uniform so very very proud .
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Hubby is still working at it took him to wal-mart for a little grocery shopping today to get him out and moving around . It wore him out but is good for him with all those darn meds in his system. Tuesday we go for the bone marrow biopsy and CT scan of his lungs again to see if the nodule has changed any and go from there .
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Went to see my Grams today .I had not gone for a week " Me bad" I sort of had a bit of a meltdown and needed a bit of time to recover this past week . It takes a bit out of a person when your world goes in all sorts of directions .Every now and then you just have to take a step back when you get overwhelmed and say hey I need to find a lil peace and look at what is good to find your way back to a better tomorrow .
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I walked into Grams room to see a lady I did not recognise thinking to myself where is Ruthie Gram's roommate . Just setting there afraid to ask knowing the awnser not wanting to hear the words spoken out load .But after a bit I found the courage to ask Grams and sure enough she passed away over the week-end .So strange how in a couple short months that sweet lady grew on me she will be missed . I made my way across the room to introduce myself to another sweet lady grams new roomie .We chatted for a bit ,when you look in there eyes you can see the sadness they try to put on a brave face for you but it is there . A big reminder of what you yourself still have . And you realise maybe things are not so bad they could be so much worse .Every time I leave Grams to walk to my car it is hard knowing the sadness that goes on in that building . How lonely they must all be and how lucky I am to wake up to a house full of love every morning . Very hard to explain ,those that are there now with loved ones , have been there understand that feeling very well .
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Those that have loved ones in a nursing home please go see them as much as you can .It means so much to them more then anyone will ever know until in there place .I myself will be back at it this week my lil break from it is over and all I have to do is think about looking in those loving eyes to remember why i go and need to go as much as possible :)


Ok my dear sweet friends now that I have rambled on for a bit ,yep that is me chit chat away lol . Speaking from my heart these days I guess . By the way if wondering I deleted my last post it was bothering me ,way to hard to explain and put into words. But thank-you so much for the kind words my dear friends meant allot to me :) ok have a good evening and a wonderful week-end .Chat at you soon .


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Renae

Happy Birthday B !!

Happy Birthday Brendon!!!!!

My kiddo turns 17 today , we will be going shopping .He is so fussy so rather then mom try to figure out what he likes which always ends up getting returned and replaced anyway .It is just easier that way lol:) Then I will be making him his supper whatever he wants .Right now I know that includes mashed potatoes with white gravy and meatballs .He is still thinking about the rest of it .So I am off to get dressed for our shopping adventure then home to cook and bake .Have a wonderful day!!!!!!

lil update ....

Hello everyone, still working on getting hubby all better and trying to find some answers yet. Monday I am going to check into a couple more doctors for some second opinions. Not happy with all that is going on at the moment so that is the next step.He is doing just a little bit better, up moving around some and eating just a bit more. I do not agree with some of what his main doctor has diagnosed and wants to do at this point . I don't think some of the other doctors agree with it either just from several comments made . So that tells me it is time to bring another doctor in rather then just go with what one of them says and hope for the best . So far they have not found any cancer which is very good news .A small nodule was found on his lung last week and a couple cysts on his kidneys which they don't seem concerned about the ones on the kidney was told that is normal hmmmm???? The one on the lung will be looked at again in a couple weeks by the cancer specialist just to see if it could be anything of concern or not. A bone marrow biopsy most likely will be done then and more blood work to recheck things . So basically we are not sure at this point if the flu and strep throat just recked havoc on his system ,if he really does have sweets syndrome as we were told or if underlying issues . I myself think it is more so the flu and strep with lots of meds on top of it causing yet more issues .But just don't know at this point so yep more waiting ,doctors and tests and in the mean time just saying prayers it will continue to get better each day and that will just awnser our questions if nothing else .

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But doing ok , have had some frustration with some of hubbies family but oh well nothing new there gotta love family and there opinions sometimes . if they only understood the added stress it brings rather then helping . I hate when people avoid you have not much to do with you for the most part then feel they can tell you what to do when something like this happens . The same people that didn't have even 5 minutes to come to the hospital the 7 days he was there .And a mother that can't even call her son I just can't wrap my head around it , but hey they sure can comment to others on how I am doing things Ughhhh!!!!oh well anyhooo ....

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I am going to try to finish up a little creation I am working on right now .Hope to get it on eBay by next week .also have a couple lil dolls I just need to get dressed and they will be listed soon as I get those finished up .So for those that have been wondering :) I am working hard to get some things listed for the upcoming holidays. Just love how working with that paint and fabric takes me into my own lil world when needed at times lol :)

So that is just a very lil update on things around here .I thank all of you for your prayers , kind words , and emails bless your hearts my dear sweet friends . I hope you all have a wonderful week-end .

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Renae

Hello everyone ,Thank-you for the kind posts and prayers means so much , I spoke with my son last night and updated him on all that is going on here after lots of thinking and trying to decide what was the right thing to do ,the best for him in his situation right now . I did not post everything before because he did not know all of it and I did not want him to read anything on here that I had not told him yet . What has been going on for the past week and a half is very hard to explain because I am still trying to understand allot of it myself and there are still things to be answered . more tests more doctors and simply just time will explain all of this we hope .

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The sweets syndrome that hubby got however it came about they think it was caused by the strep is rare and will take time to work out of his system only lots of rest fluids and steroids right now can help with that .It first caused kidney failure which is getting back to normal and we hope it stays that way . as of the doctor visit yesterday to check all his blood work again we found out he now has pancreatitis more then likely from the sweets syndrome as well .So an ultrasound was done for that this morning and should hear something by tomorrow as to how severe that is .For now he is on a clear liquid diet for a couple days which is interesting with all the meds and already not feeling well .I have to watch him very close with the possibility of rushing him back to the ER.

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Tomorrow is back to the doctor again for more blood work as they are watching him close and then to a cancer specialist in the afternoon. There is a slight possibility of that being one of the things they are looking at being an underlying factor here in all of this going on. I am waiting for a call from the mayo clinic in Rochester Minnesota right now to set up an appointment for hubby to be seen there in probably 2-3 weeks . Like I said way to much for me to try to explain right now as to what is going on without more answers . Hubbies doctor said what we need right now is a doctor house so to speak to get to the bottom of this and we will find that at the mayo clinic .

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I always hear people say God only gives us as much as we can handle .In all that is going on around me, has been going on ,He must think I am pretty strong . All I know is I am being tested to the limits right now, feel as though I have been knocked to my knees at times .But we will come out of all of this ok no matter what lies ahead for us I have to have faith in that .

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Have a good day!!!!

Hello everyone, Thank-you so much for all your kind words .They mean so much more then I can express right now. To put it bluntly I am exhausted ,frustrated and hanging on to every ounce of faith I have right now .It is hard for me to put into words what is going on in this head of mine right now .
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We did get some answers as of yesterday and hubby is home as of this evening I have to watch him very close . What I can tell you at this point is he got the flu it turned to strep which caused sweets syndrome, which caused the kidney failure and such . the kidney failure caused the suto gout to flair . There are still some remaining questions and things being done which I will share in a month or so when the steroid pack has run its coarse and the doctors can get a little better look at some things . The doctors will be watching hubby very close for a while more tests were done that will be coming in and more to be done in the months to come . He is on 7 different meds right now which I need to make charts for to make sure they all get taken right . Work is a bit of an issue and not sure what will happen there he has to be able to do something very light duty for a while at least for a month or so till the steroids do there magic and we do further testing . So I will be starting to look for work outside the home as of this week. I in all honesty at this point do not know how many of my lil creations will make there way to ebay for some time but every spare moment I have I will be trying .
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My son who probably checks in on moms blog if I know him well enough . Is still waiting on answers himself due to trianing and having to be in class to graduate .So things have been delayed with the doctors and still waiting to get some remaining answers there as well . We cannot wait to see him hopefully in 4-6 weeks .Right now we are not sure of the date due to the issues with his leg .But I can tell you I miss him so very much and the day he gets off that plane and is back home can't come soon enough for me .
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well I am beyond tired right now so I am off to check on hubby and try to get a lil sleep . But wanted to give a quick update on things the best i can right now . I will chat at you as soon as I can .Again thank-you so much for all the kind words means so very much bless your hearts .
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Renae