Little miss Haley playing in the snow yesterday after the blizzard that hit here on Christmas

One of our trees

Haley and two of my neices Christmas eve.

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Hello everyone, sorry I have not been around much with hubby, and all the holiday stuff My blog took a back seat the past few weeks. Any spare time I seem to have is spent trying to find some kind of peace with all that is going on in our lives right now if that is possible .I am trying very hard to find it at times it seems right now . But it is always there found in the simple little things I just have to remember sometimes .. remind myself that is ...and not get lost in all the bad stuff.

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Hubby is still seeing doctors trying to figure all of this out .If we don't get some answers in the next couple weeks we will be going to the mayo clinic . He is now on his third round of steroids each time he goes off things get bad again . They are going to take a closer look at his internal organs and more blood work will be sent off in about a week to double check for leukemia again .

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The past few weeks we had some very special friends from hubbies work and truly amazing family that have gone beyond themselves to make our holiday special without them well let just say they are our special angels and we are so blessed to have all of them in our lives .My dad being the biggest one of all for he is there everyday checking in on us with that big heart of his .... I will in time find a way to repay all of them for there generosity .I have been totally blown away by it all how it has touched our hearts . And so many of you saying prayers bless your hearts means so much more then I can explain .

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I went to the mail box last week to find a special card that traveled all the way across the globe from a very special lady my dear sweet friend Deb .I cannot express how much that sweet Christmas card and such a beautiful ornie meant to me Deb . I was having the worst week and you lifted my spirits in such a special way thank-you from the bottom of my heart you are such a sweet lady that I am so proud to call my friend .The simple fact that you thought about me , us sweetie and did that is beyond what I can explain . It is hanging with my other beautiful ornies you made me last year bless your heart sending you great big hugs across the globe .

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We had a blizzard hit here just in time for Christmas so hubby ,I and the kiddo's stayed in had a nice dinner and watched movies . It was nice peaceful and having all my kiddo's here under this roof was my Christmas wish and I got it :) So nice to have my kiddo home again not sure I can say that anymore LOL he sure did some growing up while gone but hey he will always be my kiddo :) My heart goes out to those who were not with there loved ones over the holidays . I didn't get to spend it with my side of family this year the first ever I think .But things change and we have to change with them I guess .I am just blessed that hubby and the kiddo's were all here safe and sound under this roof and the rest of my family was held close to my heart as always will be the case .

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I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas !! chat at you soon as I can ...

Hugs

Renae

Merry Christmas my dear sweet friends !!!!!

Ice skate and star ornies

an image for you above :)

Hello, Been busy playing with sparkly glitter and paint today .As you can see in the picture above my little ice skate and star ornies . Have a little more work to do and should have them listed in a couple days. Very cold here today Brrr!!! so not a good picture hope to get better ones done later .

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Took hubby for his biopsy on the lung on Tuesday . Was a very long day and should have results by tomorrow . He has a partial collapse of his lung right now from the biopsy it is getting a little better had it X-rayed yesterday and go back tomorrow to have it looked at again. They do not want to have to put a tube in to fix it if they do not have to .That would mean another hole placed in the lung and can sometimes collapse worse when the tube is pulled out .So just watching him close right now and hoping it will fix on it's own in the next few days .

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He had taken the last of his steroid treatment on Saturday which he was on for a month and as of Monday things started going backwards again. Knee all swollen to point he cannot straighten it all the way and in lots of pain . And feeling yucky again so went to see one of his doctors yesterday for the knee and he put him back on the steroids which should start to help in a day or so they think . What it basically means is they put him on the steroids to strengthen his system and keep whatever is going on at bay .It started to work blood counts were back to pretty much normal last week and things looked good at that point so we hoped it would remain that way . Which would mean whatever was going on would have been gone . But does not look like that is the case the past couple days have shown that already and fast . So yep more doctors waiting and answers and lots and lots of praying and faith ... just trying to do my best to keep him comfy .

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Haley and I started to put the tree up last night ,just need to get the lights on and decorate it now which she is very excited about . She got her little one put up in her room a few days ago :)

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well I have lots to do so better get busy ,just thought I would give a little update on our crazy little world right now . off to do some cleaning , make supper then play with more paint fabric and glitter :)

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Have a good evening my dear sweet friends

Hugs

Renae

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My son is home.........

Hello everyone , My son got home late Thursday night !!!!!!! took three planes and most of the day but he made it safe and sound :) So blessed to have all my kiddo's here again .... I spent all day yesterday cooking a special Thanksgiving supper.The grandparents and one of his friends were invited over .

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We made a special trip to go see grams yesterday.That is my son and grams in the picture above . I wanted her to see for herself he was back :) I went to see her on Thanksgiving day and found things not so good and when we went yesterday I hoped maybe it was just a bad day but nope ... the swelling in her face ,hands and feet is worse again only time will tell but I know.
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Hubby did not have to have the bone marrow biopsy last week blood counts came back ok this time so they want to wait . He is having a biopsy done on the nodule on his lung on Tuesday .The Steroid treatment ends tomorrow and the next week will tell us more if he gets worse again..... time will tell and the results of the biopsy on Tuesday will awnser some questions as well on pins and needles waiting for more awnsers.

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I started to put the Christmas decorations up outside today and going to work on the tree inside tomorrow I think .Lil miss Haley is wanting to put it up so mom needs to get busy and do that :)

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The last couple days have been very long and I have tons to do.But wanted to stop in and tell you all my kiddo is home .I am sooo beyond happy about that :) Have a wonderful evening !!

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Happy Birthday Dad!!!!!!

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Hello everyone, It has been a bit since I got some images up for you so here ya go :) you know what to do .
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Sorry I have not been around much been trying to wrap my head around my crazy lil world right now .Doing ok just off in my own world right now . Missy got me addicted to farmville on facebook lol yes Missy I am blaming you LOL just kidding :)I have been getting lost in that so have not been playing much with images but will get back to it soon I promise . Picture me playing on the computer in my spare time stuffing lil snowman heads :) that is what I have been doing the past few days . All these lil round heads on my desk awaiting noses to be sewn on and painted up .

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And yes those Annies are still awaiting there outfits as well .They keep looking at me telling me to get my bum busy they are cold lol . very soon my little annies :)
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Talked to my Kiddo tonight yes I am smiling right now . He passed his classes last one was today woohoo!!!! Now just to go see the doctor have things looked at again and get all the other stuff done so he can come home soon !!! My Christmas wish... my kiddo home for Christmas and his mom can't wait to see him. give him a big hug and see those shiny wings adorning his uniform so very very proud .
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Hubby is still working at it took him to wal-mart for a little grocery shopping today to get him out and moving around . It wore him out but is good for him with all those darn meds in his system. Tuesday we go for the bone marrow biopsy and CT scan of his lungs again to see if the nodule has changed any and go from there .
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Went to see my Grams today .I had not gone for a week " Me bad" I sort of had a bit of a meltdown and needed a bit of time to recover this past week . It takes a bit out of a person when your world goes in all sorts of directions .Every now and then you just have to take a step back when you get overwhelmed and say hey I need to find a lil peace and look at what is good to find your way back to a better tomorrow .
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I walked into Grams room to see a lady I did not recognise thinking to myself where is Ruthie Gram's roommate . Just setting there afraid to ask knowing the awnser not wanting to hear the words spoken out load .But after a bit I found the courage to ask Grams and sure enough she passed away over the week-end .So strange how in a couple short months that sweet lady grew on me she will be missed . I made my way across the room to introduce myself to another sweet lady grams new roomie .We chatted for a bit ,when you look in there eyes you can see the sadness they try to put on a brave face for you but it is there . A big reminder of what you yourself still have . And you realise maybe things are not so bad they could be so much worse .Every time I leave Grams to walk to my car it is hard knowing the sadness that goes on in that building . How lonely they must all be and how lucky I am to wake up to a house full of love every morning . Very hard to explain ,those that are there now with loved ones , have been there understand that feeling very well .
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Those that have loved ones in a nursing home please go see them as much as you can .It means so much to them more then anyone will ever know until in there place .I myself will be back at it this week my lil break from it is over and all I have to do is think about looking in those loving eyes to remember why i go and need to go as much as possible :)


Ok my dear sweet friends now that I have rambled on for a bit ,yep that is me chit chat away lol . Speaking from my heart these days I guess . By the way if wondering I deleted my last post it was bothering me ,way to hard to explain and put into words. But thank-you so much for the kind words my dear friends meant allot to me :) ok have a good evening and a wonderful week-end .Chat at you soon .


Hugs
Renae

Happy Birthday B !!

Happy Birthday Brendon!!!!!

My kiddo turns 17 today , we will be going shopping .He is so fussy so rather then mom try to figure out what he likes which always ends up getting returned and replaced anyway .It is just easier that way lol:) Then I will be making him his supper whatever he wants .Right now I know that includes mashed potatoes with white gravy and meatballs .He is still thinking about the rest of it .So I am off to get dressed for our shopping adventure then home to cook and bake .Have a wonderful day!!!!!!

lil update ....

Hello everyone, still working on getting hubby all better and trying to find some answers yet. Monday I am going to check into a couple more doctors for some second opinions. Not happy with all that is going on at the moment so that is the next step.He is doing just a little bit better, up moving around some and eating just a bit more. I do not agree with some of what his main doctor has diagnosed and wants to do at this point . I don't think some of the other doctors agree with it either just from several comments made . So that tells me it is time to bring another doctor in rather then just go with what one of them says and hope for the best . So far they have not found any cancer which is very good news .A small nodule was found on his lung last week and a couple cysts on his kidneys which they don't seem concerned about the ones on the kidney was told that is normal hmmmm???? The one on the lung will be looked at again in a couple weeks by the cancer specialist just to see if it could be anything of concern or not. A bone marrow biopsy most likely will be done then and more blood work to recheck things . So basically we are not sure at this point if the flu and strep throat just recked havoc on his system ,if he really does have sweets syndrome as we were told or if underlying issues . I myself think it is more so the flu and strep with lots of meds on top of it causing yet more issues .But just don't know at this point so yep more waiting ,doctors and tests and in the mean time just saying prayers it will continue to get better each day and that will just awnser our questions if nothing else .

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But doing ok , have had some frustration with some of hubbies family but oh well nothing new there gotta love family and there opinions sometimes . if they only understood the added stress it brings rather then helping . I hate when people avoid you have not much to do with you for the most part then feel they can tell you what to do when something like this happens . The same people that didn't have even 5 minutes to come to the hospital the 7 days he was there .And a mother that can't even call her son I just can't wrap my head around it , but hey they sure can comment to others on how I am doing things Ughhhh!!!!oh well anyhooo ....

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I am going to try to finish up a little creation I am working on right now .Hope to get it on eBay by next week .also have a couple lil dolls I just need to get dressed and they will be listed soon as I get those finished up .So for those that have been wondering :) I am working hard to get some things listed for the upcoming holidays. Just love how working with that paint and fabric takes me into my own lil world when needed at times lol :)

So that is just a very lil update on things around here .I thank all of you for your prayers , kind words , and emails bless your hearts my dear sweet friends . I hope you all have a wonderful week-end .

Hugs

Renae